broke down.

things may seem to be minor or easy when you say. but when it is time for you to carry the entire thing out, things don't seem to be so.
emotions that are suppressed for 6months gain enough kinetic energy and break free from the forces that are holding them back. and broke down. finally.

sounds that are hidden saw the light.

wow.

double the blow, but unlimited hurt.

wow.

where are you then?

a prick in the heart/demure policy

♥ 5:31 AM

Mm.. mood ain't really great today. and with gastric pain after breakfast was nowhere better. ): stupid thing happened early in the morning. i dropped my thermometer on the floor when i was taking temperature halfway. pe wasn't any better. played mini tennis for damn 15mins.

fortunately, didn't use much of the brain cells today. pe, pw, econs lecture, break, pw, history, pe,sports club. in short, i had PE 3 times in a day! cos sports club PT. and i ran don't know how many rounds today. and i still have to reach school to jog with mr lim kok wee early in the morning, 6.30am! ):

and my gastric pain was just there for the entire day. but i didn't whine alot okay. and feel like vomitting again. you know you know. that feeling like 2 years ago. probably my gastric flu is coming back. "yaye"!?! and by then i won't be able to eat anything oily, or maybe anything except porridge. or else, i'll diarrhea immediately. it's pretty sucky? i'll stink up the entire toliet and telling my mom "i want to shit" many many times.

alright, gonna mug and go kb tomorrow with weiting. i got a sudden urge to play tennis? i want to play squash! );

take a deep breath and continue walking down the path.
and there you see the light.
PROMOS!

♥ 6:41 AM

words that touched deep into your heart..

i promise i'll work my very very best and fight to the end.
i won't let you down.
thank you..

발아, 열심히!
난 널 실망시킨 늘!
감사합니다, 선생..
정말 고맙게 생각..

♥ 7:24 AM

ahh. have been feeling really restless at times lately. especially at night. it make me feel like sleeping when the time comes. but i can't. have to do ultimate mugging. or else, i'll retain for sure. i'm back to those coffee days. a cup a day, keeps sleepy away. promos are less than 2 months away from now. yet i still get mislead by those stoichiometry questions. ): thinking so hard, but it's not that complicated after all. i'm so dead. econs. i don't know since when, i don't seem to understand what they trying to say. i'm so dead. mathematics. hopefully, the tuition will get me somewhere. or else, the money, the time spent travelling all the way to simei..

i hate whining so much about studies on blog. but i can't help to whine. if no whining about studies meaning i coping well? but it seems that i never fail to whine about studies every single time. that's pretty sad.

just realised this post is so dead. let's be lively! ^^

anyway, poor daesung got into an accident. poor thing. my zhi ai big bang okay! get well soon ah.

and i finally got my BIG SHOW DVD! thank you ah qian's sis! BIG BIG THANK YOU! haha.
must really find some time watch it! can't wait for the day to come. ^^

and and and! i tell you, i will never touch ice cream, except froghurt, until that very day comes! if i eat ice cream before the day ever comes, i'm not valerie eng! damn yesterday bad experience! it's damn horrible, terrible! ): i'm even forgoing my favourite baskin robbins! serious!

i can't wait for monday! ^^ anyway, dragon boating is super fun! and i realised it's not very possible for one person to make the boat move. all thanks to zihui's "valerie, 10 hard stroke!". ): i'm not the mastermind for the endless strokes ma. LOL. but it was pretty fun overall. all of us got so wet in the end. poor aaron, he fell into the water and got really wet. and shuling's hair loves me. LOL.

alright alright, off to ultimate mugging! latte is going to be with me throughout the night.
i truly hope the day will come. ^^

♥ 9:54 AM

56 more days to promos. it's really really time to buck up, pull my socks real high. probably to the knees! mid-years are such a great wake up call for me. i don't want to retain. who wants to retain man? i gonna study real hard. PW at vincent's house was pretty productive today. puohua was happy enough to eat the pizzas. LOL. but something weird happened. and it made puohua laugh like some crazy woman, giggling non-stop. i got hit by a ball intentionally, right onto my eye. thank you ah, weird. you should be glad that i'm not wearing contact lenses at that time. weird.


am i just being too senstive? Or that's really how you feel? i hoped that i'm just being too senstive. i hoped that's not the truth. friendships ain't supposed to be like this. but why? i can't help to think that way. this is not the first time i feel so. and at times, can't help, but to protect myself by stepping back. if that's really the truth, what were the times back then? illusion? because you have no choice? it's really saddening to think that way. importance don't seem to be there anymore. more likely that i can be forgone. doing things for the sake of doing. i pray that's not the truth. i rather to be too senstive.

i still cherish our friendship, but do you? tell me..

♥ 8:02 AM