alone.

everyone seems to.

♥ 5:56 AM

i have no idea if i should be happy or sad. if i say i am happy, but there's nothing for me to be happy about. but i say i am sad, but what's the thing that i should be sad about?

maybe there are really things that i am sad and dwelled for long.

i seriously can't take it. can i choose no? can i just simply abandoned it somewhere?

i am so tired of stuffs.

everything went wrong..

its so wrong.

what's my problem? no one tells me. and just back to the square.

i am feeling so tard now. so stressed up? i have no idea.

♥ 7:39 AM

rawr. i am so freaking tired. rawr. there's so much thing s to do right now. tmr still have that deco. tard lah. and have to settle cross county. tard lah. have to do this and that. x_x i am so freaking tired. didn't went for tuition today. thats sad man. cos investiture ended at 6 plus.

i see nowhere.

i wanted to emo for awhile de. just for fun only. to vent something out of empty. but failed. can't be emo le. this's consider a good or bad thing?

despite having so much things to settle, i am feeling so empty. seriously, the emptiness is there. mentally empty?

have to mug. so many freaking tests next week. i hate them man.

♥ 6:46 AM

rawr. i was going mad today. seriously mad man. cos i can't find my pencil case. as in, i just changed all my stationary recently. thats pretty sucky if i lost my pencil case this time. and i was getting so pek chek. and heard glenn went to play with my deoderant. i was like freakingly mad. at that point, i was pissed. yes. i was seriously going mad for my pencil case. xP

but after that, i was alright le. pretty fast hur? i did my homework nowadays by myself. i don't do it during lesson time like the past few days. back to good kid. xD

den anthia told me something thats made me feel so inferior, so sucky. i was trying to vent everything at that time. but after that, i got back my pencil case. back to normal. thanks chingmay. xD

after that, went to help casey to pack up the council room. found a dead hornet inside a speaker. its so gross. so freaking gross lah.

yue hong ayi didn't scold me today during tuition. nahaha. she was still smiling today. x) i hv a great satifisation in the morning during pe lesson. nahaha. this is the first time i scam people and its a successsful one. usually, i am always the one who tio scam. hohoho. victim: yiyong. haha. i guess if i elaborate on it, he will kill me.

终于学会了
i don't mean it. serious.

♥ 7:02 AM

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LYNN! xD

went out damn early ytd to chinatown for checking of cloth. i went to the people's park market. some shop owners damn fierce and unfriendly lah. scolded me somemore. i am customer okay. lols.

den yimei came to join me. we went to jalan sultan. when we got there, it was all black inside. no shop is open lah. den 1 uncle told us the shops don't open during weekends. i was like x_x/ rawr. so went to arab street. we went to 1 shop. the uncle scam me. x_x he told me what the whole street, all the cloth sell at $5 price. den i believed him indeed? how come? am i that stupid? x_x

so yimei and i went down the whole street asking around. i was like so freaking tired. den finally, we found shops. woohoo! nahaha. so yimei and i finally can shou gong you know. went to amk kfc to join weiting, van, tiffany, jiwei and joanne studying. i did study okay. den went popular shop for stationary. hohoho. and i realised my shoes were worn out. there's a very big hole there. no shoes le lah.

after school, ziyu and i ran around level 1. cos she used the chop chop and chopped on my hand. rawr. i became sch property if anyone signed on it. so i used the "no- idea-what" chasing ziyu around. haha. casey helped me lah. haha. xD went to buy cloth today. with ziyu and alvin. you know what. both of them is perfect match lah. i hv no idea how to describe both of them. hahaha. the cloth is super heavy alright. after that, ziyu and i ran with the cloth around lah. they are so freaking heavy. x_x today, ziyu kept mentioning that i am one who can trick easily. in the sense of bei cheated. is it? i got so stupid meh? and i finally know why ppl say i always cross the road without looking carefully. today, i just crossed the road without looking carefully. den there were 2 vehicles coming towards. i only saw the bus lah. until ziyu shouted," got car!" den i realised. and so i ran quickly with the cloth. looked so clumsy. x_x

♥ 6:12 AM

wow. today's racial harmony day. all of us wore ethnic costumes. woots. i woke up late oday lah. suppose to meet wenkai and david at interchange at o63o. sorry guys. haha.xP so cool isn'tit? the whole class, 3e7 wore. hohoho. we took lots of pics today with the whole class. thats great.

i forgot to bring money today to sch. so recess borrow from fengrong. intended to look for shihui, ziyu, wanni and yuting to recess-ed together de, but when i bought the food, they finished eating le. lols.

i did listen in class today alright. i am a good kid.

i guess i gonna flunk my amath test. i don't know how to do. rawr. shall not elaborate on it anymore. its already over.

went for the briefing after school. it took so freaking long. co was alright. but hv to learn that new song. rawr. i don't want. x_x

i am so affected.

♥ 7:01 AM

rawr. i am so freaking tired now. my whole body aching just because this morning completed fac in 1 go within 1o mins. rawr. slept at 2am, causing me to be so freaking sleepy now. went co. it was still alright i guess. i was so sleepy that i seriously fell asleep halfway through co practice. until my head knocked into my zhongruan and i woke up. went home immediately. but bloody 7o just don't wanna come. so i took 147 den walked up back home. it was kind of far today. and bloody 7o passed by when i was walking up back home. not 1 bloody 7o. there were 2. rawr. one of them was double-decked somemore. causing me to have the urge to just go bang the wall.

tmr is racial harmony. wow. 3e7 whole class wearing formal wear. thats cool alright. but tmr is not alright. there's amath test when it got to do with graphs. there's a curse on me that whenever the test is on graphs or something got to do with it, i would flunk that paper like mad. hope it won't happen on me. graphs suck okay. sucks totally. and worse still, i don't really know that well. rawr. bless me man.

don't look. i feel weird looking.

♥ 5:55 AM

nahahhaa. i finally get to know how to form ionic equations. and i get to understand acids, bases and salt. hurray! all thanks to my tuition. it did help seriously. i didn't waste my papa's and mama's money. muahah.

hm. i did do homework myself now. by MYSELF. finally back to normal alright. but my temper is kind of BAD BAD BAD. throughout these past few days, i scolded so many time ****. rawr. den wenkai was asking me,why these few days you keep scolding ****. and i realised its true. x_x but today i only scolded one time. to shaun. xP i don't mean it and its unintentionally de. once again,sorry shaun. xP

there are tons of homework today. shito. tard. rawr. haha. i am going crazy. kind of hyper. met ruihong on bus 1o9. both of board the bus at interchange. but the weird thing is we didn't see each other at all, until we gonna alight. lols. weird.

♥ 4:54 AM

feeling quite off today. hm. how come? i have no idea. okay. that nonsense matter settled? suppose i guess.

ahh! there two days i have no been doing my homework untill its 1o++pm. thats bad. i must do my homework today. yes i must!

nahhaa. yue hong a yi postponed the tuition to thursday. i hvn't complete her homework. so its good. i have time to finish it. heehee.

i am so broke. x_x money money money!!! 2 weeks more. i would die hur. shall not spend so much for there 2 weeks. or else i would die. lols.

time to wake up girl.
i feel kind of weird.

♥ 4:19 AM

woke up damn early to do elearning. but not for the purpose i woke up so early. lols. went to sch for investiture rehearsal. but throughout, i was simply doing the deco thing. rawr. so mafan. yucks! sad lah. intend to watch harry potter with shihui and the rest de. but got council. RAWR! den hurry hurry went home to wash up to meet jes, yiyong and jiale. i was sleeping throughout the bus journey. its so freaking long.

den reached there at 4 plus. we cycled around. played swing! don't understand why yiyong can go so high. lols. later, going to return the bike, i was kind of lost. i gonna return the bike myself. rawr. alone! den walked to the cafe to meet the rest of them. zhengyong, bon and desmond playing pool. rst of us sat there and watched. lols. went to eugene house later.

we bought food at pasir there. damn eugene! he poked my hand while yiyong and him poking my bubble tea cup. lols. yiyong kept sleeping on the bus lah. like kid. haha. den we walked to eugene house. yiyong, jiale and yunsheng played the piggyback thing. and they lost balance and fell. yunsheng back nearly broke i guess. hahaha. den they started playing. bon and desmond even lied on the middle of the road and took photos. haha. den jiale piggybacked yiyong into the condo. den no idea why, 3 of us started running. n. should be 2. cos yiyong was at jiale's back. den yiyong "fell" from jiale back and tripped me. rawr! ended up 3 of us fll down on the ground. the worst is my right leg got scar le lah! initially, only my left leg have it mah. rawr! and that desmond bit my ice cream until don't know look like what. x_x played pool and table tennis at eugene house condo. but i was playing games throughout. so fun. nahaha. i won so many times lah. muahaha. thats cool alright.

the rooms were so freaking cold. so i "cooped" yiyong's jacket. xP haha. its damn big and abit wet. lols. after that, yunsheng, bon, desmond and zhengyong went off first. left jes, yiyong, jiale, eugene and i. den eugene started hitting the ping pong balls everywhere. it hit my leg lah.den everyone started laughing. lols. its damn pain lah. there's a red mark on my leg now. all thanks to eugene hou boyi! and they continued this. all of us got hit my the ping pong balls. but in the end, yiyong get the most number of hits. lols. jes the safest cos she was sitting at the corner. yiyong even crawled out of the room lah. we laughed throughout.

went up euegene house to drink water. and no idea why yiyong started laughing like hell. non-stop. and the pitch was kind of high. he laughed until tears in his eyes lah. aftre that, left euegene house. yiyong still continued to laugh. i missed my bus. so i took cab home. or else i would reach home very late. lols. and while we were waiting for my cab and their buses, yiyong still continued laughing. *shake head* i got so many brusies today lah. so called shang hen lei lei.

but it was fun today! ahh! tmr morning still have to go back school. x_x

♥ 10:29 AM

oral gone case? x_x i guess i was talking shit for the conversatation. plus, my voice was kind of shit today. my throat die le lah. can't even hear a single word. all are just murmmuring. shall not cry over spill milk. lols.

yiyong and yuliang went for ncc, "banggggggg!!" wenkai says its not "bang" should be, "bangggggggg!!" cos "bang" is npcc. lols. so cool hur.

"things get rough all over" is that the quote for the outsiders? something like that? haiii.

tag replys

wu_gui: lols. xP nahaha.
yimei: sure. call me anytime. i will be there for you de. xD cheer up man.
shihui: lalallaal. xP
vanessa: i know you love me. muahaha. xD
jeslyne: yep. same to you. =)
kazan: hihi. haha.

Still by frankie J

I got a call late last night
From a number I didn't know
It was so strange I knew who it was
From the moment she said "Hello."
And I paused for a minute
I couldn't believe it
I kept my cool so my girl just wouldn't see
She said, "I'm sorry but there's something you should know"
This is what she said to me,

"I didn't let you go
No I can't let you go"
She said, "I'm having such a hard time"
Then I heard, "I can't let you go
I just can't let you go"
And then she said, "I think I'm loosing my mind

"'Cause I still love you
This I must confess
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
So if I've interrupted anything
I promise I won't call you again"

So I told her my heart felt
The same that it did before (as it did before)
Its never changed
My feelings never went away girl (no)
My heart never closed the door
(no, no never closed the door)
Then I stopped for a minute
gotta think about my lady
And what we have going on (what we have going on)
She's about to have my baby
Girl, you waited much to long
I gotta let you go
I'm hanging up the phone
This conversation can't go on no more
I gotta let you go

[STill lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Cause if I don't let you go
I fear that I might let you know
'Cause I still love you
This I must confess
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
So if I interrupted anything
I promise I won't call you again

Now I'm doing just fine with my girl
Not about to let her go (can't let her go, let her go)
Just because you find me once again
it doesn't mean you're coming back home
(doesn't mean you’re coming back home)
Now its been about 2 years or so (its been about 2 years)
Since we went our separate ways (went our separate ways)
You gotta face the fact
we're over with and done
'Cause I

'Cause I still love you
This I must confess, Baby
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again, Baby
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
So if I interrupted anything
I promise I won't call you again

'Cause I still love you (cause I still l, I still love you Baby)
Yes I still need you (but I better not talk about it 'cause I rather move
on with my life and do what I gotta do)
(im sorry Baby) Yes I still want you
You gotta move on
So if I interrupted anything
I promise I won't call you again


I promise I won't call you ever again...

♥ 4:25 AM

nahahahha. schooling again. its still alright. emath lesson was funny. nahaha. wenkai, yiyong, jiale were damn funny. fingers? fortunately i am a girl. nahaha. sat at the stairs to talk with my girls after school. =) after that, studied with jes and van. nahaha. thats fun. we did study! muahah. good kids. van and i company-ed jes to the bus stop whereby there are buses for 3 of us. but we caused jes to miss her bus lah. haha. damn amusing. hha.

thanks my GIRLS(ZIYU, SHIHUI, WANNI, YUTING) and JES and VAN! xD muhaha.

♥ 4:03 AM

nahahah.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JES!

went out with jes, yiyong, glenn, jiale, shaun, david, wenkai and shikang. i was late, so meet them directly at marina bay. nahaha. celebrate jes birthday. we went to eat steamboat! one tomyam, one chicken soup. so we started cooking. initially, ours not working lah. it don't seems to be barbueing the food. den in the meanwhile, the other side started eatng le. rawr. haha.

we cooked this and that. there are mushrooms, balls, chicken, beef, pork, veggie, eggs,... etc. all kinds of variety. we kept adding eggs into the soup. hahah. later on, we even barbcue the egg. our side de is fry egg. tomyum side de is scrambled eggs. but obviously ours are better.

there's one time when we needed to add soup. we kept calling the uncle lah. den he was asking what soup do we want. and don't know what's in my mind, i answered with "hotwater" den the uncle was like question marks popping all around. haha. malu hur.

glenn came out with a drink. mango tea- whatever! nahaha. initially, they wanted to trick me to drink it up lah. evil hur. den we started playing open numbers. haha. den loser drink it up. many afetr drinking, throw up immediately. except for, jes, yiyong, shaun, jiale and me! woots. we damn zai rite. but the drink is quite yucky lah. shaun damn evil. he jacked me alot of times on the drink. he pretended gonna throw up to my side. heh. he tend to bribe me on some stuffs. tsk tsk. no idea why, yiyong damn hungry. after drinking the mango tea, he continued eat and eat and eat. haha. we watched firworks later on. cool.

went to raffles place after that. den we planned to give jes a surprise. nahaha. i tricked jes to 7-eleven to buy drink for the guys. in the meanwhile, they went to the toliet and go buy cake. haha. so we sat there. jes failed to blow the candle for 3 times. haha. finally, she managed to blow it. haha. later on, shaun and wenkai tried to smash the cake on jes face. but failed. den glenn damn zai. he ate one mouth of the cake den turned one round and smash it to jes face. he even twist and turn on jes face lah. haha.

we cleared up, den they washed up and we went home. haha. fun fun fun. later on, yiyong, wenkai, shikang, shaun, glenn and i took purple line. jes and jiale took red line. they damn evil lah. ran off leaving me there. i am a smart girl. i didn't run to catch up them. nahaha. shaun tried to bribe me again in the meanwhile. tsk tsk.

tired. played and laughed too much. haha.

♥ 10:02 PM

wow. mingliang sent me a song on wednesday. quite nice lor.

Wait For You lyrics by Elliott Yamin.
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
[ Wait For You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …




note: don't think in wrong way. simply just lyrics.

not bad lor. lols. okay. i am random.
ahh! i am feeling so tard now. i emo lah. lols. if its really emo, its hv been such a long time since the last time i emo le. ahh! cooping myself in self denial. shito. feel so tard. feel so TARD! stop pumping heart?

emotions gushing through? flashing back like lightning? what tard am i talking about? i have no idea too. TARD!

it would be so great if its true. just coop myself in self denial. coop myself in own world. tard! tard! tard!

♥ 5:26 AM

lalalalallala.

telling myself.

jiayou vaL.

lols. abit random hur. lols.

hahahhahahahahhahahahahah.

it would be so great if its true.
how i wish so.

♥ 5:52 AM

ahh! finally, youth day over. i think the dance was a totally screw! but anyway, thanks dancers for making the efforts. x) but ms ong's face damn black. x_x

but the whole concert still run well i guess. lols. went home straight after school. i didn't go anywhere. i am such a good kid. x) pei shihui until o32o. den walked, saw tedson. he damn mean, abandoned his friend. haha.

went home sleep sleep sleep. woots. so shuang. my tutor a bit impaitent today. she kept rush through and kept scolding me for nothing. lols. kinda of weird hur. i don't feel like doing my emath. so many questions to complete. any kind soul willing to do for me? haha. lols.

*stop pumping heart* =) its a good thing isn't it? guess so.

♥ 7:12 AM