have been sleeping lots today. muahaha.
i am stopping, so please stop moving.
i can't take it any longer.
♥ 6:14 AM
as we walk to the left
as we walk to the right
as we walk
as we walk
as we walk all night...
lols.
i am bored.
RAWR!
we go round and round and round back to the past.
are we able to move on and stop looking back?
lols
♥ 3:37 AM
went to sch for dance practice. after lots of struggling, shiyuan and i finally done with it. we were worn out.
went out for dinner with vane, niantee, jiaen, fion and pop. den we were doing some funny stuffs. i slapped pop twice in a row. muahha. so shuang. xP
yucks. i simply hate it. shito. life sucks totally. yucks! i detest now. shito.
♥ 8:06 AM
hv to go sch tmr. early in the morning. x__x maybe it will be fun tmr. arghx. i missed the 6 hours of my favourite, kayaking! yucks. lols.
a happy thing will be meeting vane, niantee, jiaen and maybe fion and pop. yep. vane and i would have free entertainment tmr. hahaha. thats so fun. haha. i would be even happier if pop don't suan me tmr. yep. not at all. but it would be a miracle if he don't suan me. so i won't have high hopes on that. lols.
wondering about stuffs. back to thinking in process? at least its unlike last time when i would just dazing all over. out of mind. lols. maybe i should just. yah. maybe. i have no idea. lost of words. so maybe thats my final decision? lols. lalala.
♥ 7:39 AM
oh no. i <3 2e5'o6! muahaha. i miss 2e5'o6 alot alot alot alot now! i miss everyone alot alot alot alot now! i can't wait for the gathering. lols. okay. thats quite random hur. xP
WE ARE ALWAYS ONE BIG CLIQUE! <3
<3 wanni, yuting, valerie, manxuan, ziyu, shihui, yimei
<3 jianan, yanchang, fengrong, kenny, wenxun, wenkai
i love you all! muahaha.
<3
erm. i guess i am getting high. haha. in the middle of the night blogging this. muahaha.
you people rock okay!
i rocks too of course. hah.
i love the times with you all. haha.
btw, jianan knocked into a huge tree ytd. so i am better than him in cycling okay. lols. xP
♥ 10:24 AM
wow. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WANNI! xD
went out with them ytd to celebrate wanni's birthaday. muahah. fun. first, we went to stalk wanni at her hse. to give her the present. xD after hailing for long, we finally got up a cab, to pasir ris interchange.
met xun, fengrong and mao there. we went to cycle first. yuting and wanni had problems cycling their double bike. haha. mao and xun damn evil. they trying to di siao me while i was cycling lah. so can't blame me for screaming so many times. xun even tried to push me and made me fall. EVIL.
after that we met wenkai, ziyu and manxuan. cycled for long.ting, wanni and fengrong got lost halfway. den we went around looking for them. we even mistook some people as them. hah. funny. after that, ziyu and i went home first. we boarded bus 58. there were 3 sicko guy starring and smiling to ziyu and i. =.= yucks. rushed home to bathe and went for dinner with family. the food was alright. lols. ziyu and i are sick. muahaha. lols.
maybe i really shld just
♥ 4:40 AM
got our IC today. its like such a lame ceremony. wenxun amd i were like crapping through. lols. before getting up the stage, i was like thinking what if i fall down while walking up. lols. random hur. but the good things are we missed 2 periods. haah.
i guess yiyong feel like killing me beforehand. haha. just joking only. i shall not tease him. or else i will have a terrible day on mon.
finally, holidays come. but i have like only abt 1o days free. yucks. with tons of homework. co ended early today. nice. hha. but kind of tired of it.
after co, weiting, jiwei and i were like sitting at the void deck there chatting for 2 hours plus. haa. cool.
poor van was sick today. she puke in the morning i think. poor thing. x__x tons of stuffs are right in my mind. tired.
whatever. heh. lols.
♥ 8:58 AM
ms leong is back. but she's like a changed person. so sarcastic and fierce to us today. and ms tan soo lan is so amusing. ultraman! lols. i prefer her to mdmn ong more. at least she's funny and know how to teach. jeslyne is not in school today. and i am alone during english lesson lah. thats so pathetic. but today english period, i just simply doing the planning of youth day. i am so proud of myself. i finished the entire thing within 1 hour. isn't that cool? hah.
co after school was alright. it was funny in fact. weiting and i were so mean that we let all the juniors sit in the front row while both of us just hide ourselves at the 2nd row. muahahaha. i am so tired and sleepy. off to work.
accept it. thats the fact. a fact that can't be change. yes, i admit i don't feel good this way. but do i have a choice? no, i don't. so accept it. shit. it have been 2 days.
♥ 5:48 AM
i guess i am suffering kind of depression. shito. no way man. heh. i am just being lost. have been sleeping since 7 plus till 11 plus. but i still feel so tired. gonna back to sleep again. ah!!! btw, i am not emo okay. tmr will be a better day! i won't be so lost like today! yep. definitely. if i have the energy tmr, i will be super hyper. i promise. lols. smile girl! i am just being too tired and sleepy. thats why my brain don't works so well and my mind went wrong. my eyes are getting smaller now. off to sleep. good night. =)
this is the day. what am i waiting for? this is the day i have been waiting for long. but somehow when the day comes, i am so lost. i have no idea what am i waiting for. i can just simply do it. but ... it just stopped. today is specially a hard day to pass. can i make it?
♥ 8:59 AM
joanne: hello.
lijun: LIJUN! xD
nderson: erm. hihi. you are?
bran: hihi. huh?
jeslyne: yep. you too. x)
EL : huh?
fr: yep. suan le bah. haa
tiifany: yo. haha. hihi. i know you miss me xin huan. xP
♥ 3:27 AM
hm... today's kind of bored and irritating? i have no idea why i get so irritated by myself so easily today. i am so freaking pissed with myself. mod swing i guess. feel a sudden lost. i hate myself at this moment. wondering of all sorts of stuffs. but thinking carefully, i should not think too much. i would feel worse if i continue. just heck care man. jes went to cruise le. happy cruise-ing. lols. enjoy. i seriously don't feel like going to school. its driving me crazy.
i don't get why. its like so sudden. after monday, the whole atmosphere was so different. can't probably expect me to come and ask you. sian. i don't like it. its like so freakingly "cold". x__x don't want to think about it. don't want to give a damn to it.thats the day. but nothing is done.
♥ 3:15 AM
all out of a sudden lost all words. blank. totally blank. i have no idea why. a sudden empty feeling? i am not thinking too much. not being emo. not kan bu kai. just that now i have no idea what i want to say. i have no idea what i am thinking now, what's in my mind. hm... have no idea.
what's wrong? anything happen? why are you so weird since yesterday?
its not that you all can't say me. its just that i don't like the feeling of knowing you all are talking about me in front of me. maybe you all are not even talking about me, just being too senstive. just don't show out if you are, please. thanks. =)run away.
♥ 5:00 AM
sleepy. i feel like sleeping now. yawn. zzz. kinda of feeling not to come to school. i don't have the mood. today i feel so shit. i have no idea why. its not that i think too much okay. just feeling so shit. yucks. haha. maybe its just that i am too sleepy. but i have been sleeping for many many hours le. ytd night, i fell asleep at 8. den woke up at 2am. den continued to sleep 3o mins later. till this morning 5 plus. 9 hours? i still feel that sleepy. whats wrong with me? lols.
peeking into my own inbox, i realised something. thats so ...
i am trying hard not to give a damn to you.maybe its really true. maybe its just that i am thinking too much. i am not gonna think abt it.
♥ 4:53 AM
hm... ytd? for the whole day, we were taking cca photos. i stood at the 3rd and 4th row. i was so freaking happy lor. cos i think thats the first and last time for me to stand there. after that, we simply had free periods all the way. during the last period, ziyu came to 3e7 and joined us. and we just crapped there along. soon, shihui joined us too. i gonna have $25 soon. co resumed. and even after syf, we have to train hard lah. so weiting and i were like ... after co, i rushed back home to wash up. i was like 1 hour 3omins late. haha. meeting vanessa(chua), niantee and jiaen. fionna was not free i guess. den after queuing for long, we finally able to eat hur. its yummy. haha. but for a few times, i nearly puke the food out while eating. all thanks to them hur. haha. but we were having fun there. after that, we were so full lah.s o walked around amkhub. vanessa and i just can't stop laughing. i laughed till i had a headache and vanessa had a stomachache? thats funny. and we went to play around inside the ntuc. haha. fun.
btw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TEDSON! xD
i simply had lost my voice. lols.
♥ 9:07 PM
okay. finally? haha. i mean finally getting things through. i am serious. in some ways, i have grown up. in some ways, i am still that childish i think. going through things make us grow up and be more mature though growing up is scary i suppose. initially, when i was in such a confusion state that i don't even know what am i thinking, what's in my mind, what i am doing in actual fact. thats so scary hur. and now, i have seriously think through thoroughly. thanks for all. so sorry to all too. i think i am kind of weird, keep thinking so much, keep crying for nothing sometimes or for some no-reason reason, being so freaking stubborn, and many many more. life can be filled with happiness i suppose. its only a choice whether you want or not. hah. i am not going to think so much. just simple stuffs. life is simple. a simple life? yep. thats the thing, thats the life. and being more optimistic. thats the thing. always look on the bright side. thanks people. a sincere thank you. hah. i am mature in some ways. i have grown up.
let the past pass.
let the future comes.
let everything starts all over.
=)
♥ 5:34 AM
sick sick sick.. stay at home for the whole day? sian. haiii... what can i do?
i am just trying to balance both friendships. so sorry.
♥ 10:10 PM
i practically have no idea what to do now. i seriously just want to balance both. i am so sorry if i make you all feel disappointed or f***** up. i am trying hard to balance them. i want to balance both. sorry.
♥ 5:42 AM
i feel so sick today. perharps i am just simply sick. running in and out the toilet throughout the middle of the night. here comes my gastic flu back to visit me. yucks. i had a fever i think. feel so cold now. get back some papers. hm... i have no comment to it. took class photo today. yucks. i sat on the first row. boo!!! i was standing last year lah. it was so funny the candid photos. we had a flower pose. cool hur. thats 3e7'o7. xD
i feel sick. i am sick. but those words made it worse. i am so sick. am i just too silly? you are practically serious about it. and i am just simply holding it, unable to release.
♥ 3:23 AM
wow. hm.. i went out ytd again. muahah. with wanni and shihui. first we went to amkhub. next to town. company shihui to buy her bag. newurbanmale! so rich. i want a new bag too! my stupid bag died in 2 months time. after that, went to ngee an city to visit the guys. so shuang. they had seoul garden. next to FAR EAST PLAZA! soon, shihui left first. so wanni and i continued. wanni bought quite a no. of things. haha. we planned to go there and shop on tue again i think. haha. and since the time is early, i companyed wanni to sengkang and took bus to amk. lols. its was so cold on the bus lah. amkhub was even worse. finally, i reached ah ma hse. we cousins were being bombarded by my aunties as usual. lols.
congrats to mingliang! he won the match ytd. haha. so cool lah. the competition held at toa payoh stadium. he won hongyi. hah. didn't know that hong yi was amkps' table tennis captain and mingliang was vice-captain. xP and realised that his sister really studied in zhonghua. no wonder i saw her last time. okay. thats quite a stupid comment. of course she studied there, or else how would i be able to see her. lols.
i am a good kid. i stay at home for the whole day today. xD
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL GREAT MUMMYS IN THE WORLD!
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO MUMMY ENG! hah. xP
♥ 12:21 AM
wow. went out with the clique. 2e5'o6 the class i love. haha. went to cine to watch 2oo pounds beauty. it was so touching and sad. haha. but it was freakingly cold in the cinema. wenxun was so horny that throughout the whole movie he kept talking about... and he's evil. and he's lame that there was a part when its so sad. and he said, "you want cry ar don't cry" in a amusing manner. lame hur. after that ziyu and the guys except wenkai left. so the rest of us walked around and went to kfc. there was a sick boy who kept looking at us and smile while eating. so sicko. lols. and he has retro hairstyle lah. so cool hur. okay. today was quite fun. we bought wenkai a small cake and cookie thats resembles him. xD HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENKAI! 33mins later, it will be wenkai's birthday officially. haha.
okay. my legs are aching. lols. pain and sleepy now. lols. btw, good luck to mingliang for his competition tmr. so zai lah. maybe he's able to meet hongyi in the match. hah. nice one. lols.
-back to square-
♥ 8:13 AM
wooo!!! mid-year exams finally over. haha. i even had nightmares due to the stress. lols. jes and i were like cheering and screaming in class. and joanthan said, "shh.. other classes still have paper." finally. felt so relieved. went out with jes, van and fel. we first met in bishan. went to lavender to company fel to make IC. next, to bugis to shop. haha. but our legs were aching later. haha. first time, going out with jes, van and fel together. nice one. wenkai came and joined us later. okay. i felt very very tired now. i wanna sleep. tmr don't have to go sch early. cos we don't have any paper during session A. but i am going to reach sch early to meet ziyu and the rest. see i so good. lols. i would pray for all of you. haha. jiayou. tmr going out with the clique. it have been so long ago since the last time we went out together. xD
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL! sheryl is my gan nu er. haha. she's so cute lor. xD
exams over. but this causes me to have time to think. die. should i?
♥ 5:59 AM
argh... i am so freaking stressed up though tmr is the last paper le. chem damn hard lah. sianed. and i was going crazy during the break before amath paper. i don't know how to do. and i was feeling so freaking stressed up that i did actually cried. yucks. sucks totally. it was so cold in the hall. i was like freezing there. fel and i kept making the "siii.." sounds. lols. went home. i slept throughout the whole afternoon. i am very very tired. history is killing me lah. i feel stressed up once again. arghx... jiayou vaL. last paper. pia all way. but i am so tired now. i have already drank 2 cans of coffee today. but it don't seems doing any effect on me hur. my eye bags are getting bigger. i think the whole sec3 chord's eyes bags are getting bigger and bigger. shito. and i have PIMPLES. yucks.
its not the same anymore. not the same. its different now. everything is different now.when is the day? when is the day when i can just lead a happy and simple life? when is the day when you all are perfectly alright with me?
♥ 8:01 AM
jeslyne: hihi. xD
ernest: white colour better. simple mah. lols. so orangy you.
ziyu: yah lor. x__x
brandon: why must have xiu quan name inside? lols.
jeslyne: yep. xD
joanne: lols. haha. yah lor. brandon, see lah. lols
jiaxin: hihi. there must be something wrong inside his mind. lols.
♥ 3:40 AM
early in the morning. its so freaking humid. had higher chinese paper today. hm... quite difficult. i don't know how to read some words. left with chem, amath and history. had a bad headache. wthell. my gastic pain comes and visits me practically every morning.the worst thing is it comes during the middle of the exam. thats so ... but its quite obedient. i tell the pain to go away first, come back after exam. the pain did do that.
hm... my mood is not right. not in the right mood. i know.
btw, sorry to everyone out there. nowadays, my temper is very bad and i guess i getting very violent. x__x i don't want. i will try to control my temper. try to change it and change the violence. i know its sucks to the core. i hate it too.
sorry, wenkai. xP
has the time comes? thinking in deep thoughts. i am in a dilenma. i am changing... but it seems there are too much for me to change. i getting tired. i guess i have lost myself. my indentity? i don't wish that too. i am so tired to keep changing. but i am afraid that if i don't change, you all may just leave me one day.
♥ 3:25 AM
arghx... i can die le. i guess i have flunk my emath paper. so many blanks lah. 2 hours are not enough. x__x and i was so agitated that i kept ... shito. tmr, we gonna have higher chinese paper. JIAYOU! GAMBATEI! after school, lunch-ed with ziyu, wanni, shihui, yuting, jennifier, jiwei and van. i think the food sucks totally. yep. lols. afterwards, boarded 7o with ziyu, wanni and shihui. shihui and wanni were so hyper that they sang in the bus. lols. haha. and we chatted and chatted. haha. finally we reached yio chu kang mrt there. wanni and i company-ed ziyu and shihui there. haha. so i went into the interchange and wanni went opposite take bus. i was like so dumb at the interchange lah. i stared at the bus 7o for nothing. and stoned there hur. plus, its leaving lah. it stopped there for so long for ppl to board. and i just stared blankly there. x__x dumb me. so waited for bus. its quite fast actually. and reached my stop. so i walked down the steps. "BOMG!" i don't know what happen and i fell down the bus to the side of the pavement. walau! and so there's wound again. and its at the same spot hur. wthell lah. so freaking malu can. ppl looking at me lah. and the way i fell to the floor is the whole person "pa" on the floor lah. there are 3 nice aunties helped me to get up. thats so malu. x__x yucks.
okay. this morning i almost vomit blood. all thanks to brandon. zzz i finally able to understand what's ku xiao bu de. lols.
♥ 5:56 AM
today's so weird.
wow! over hur! OVER!
oh man. my bag broke again lah! rawr!!! boo!!! its only 2months lah.
let go! muahaha.
♥ 6:22 AM
