i am dying... lols. went to sch for parents meeting session duty. wen to sch for 1 hour odd just for that? hahah. lols. there are tons of homeworks stacking there waiting for me. >.< 2 weeks of tuition homework? i slept 12 hours in total. muahahah. but thats not enough for me i guess. i am very very tired... so went i got back home. sleep sleep sleep again. have been sleeping from 4. lols. i still feel sleepy. maybe tonight i shall have an early night. haha.
wondering about some stuffs... its actually quite true... whats the point right? as if there will be changes after that. no point no point. then i mind as well forget it. simply forget it. maybe it will be better. seriously no point. anyone understand? anyone care? no. so just forget it. let it be... =) maybe thats a better way bah. haha. i am so positive man. =P i am not emo pls. i am not hving a bad mood pls. i am not mood swinging pls. these are just some facts that human have to face. i am one who kan kai de. yep man. and i guess among all, that one is the best. though i struggled through the ending there, but at least i am smiling through the process. haha. nice one. wonder what will this be? lols. i guess no one understand what crap i am talking about. neither do i know what crap i am talking about too. xD
do you understand? do you care?who knows.no one except yourself.
♥ 4:14 AM
arghx... i am so tired. i want to sleep. gonna collapse and die in anytime. woke up so early in the morning, went to sch, do the cheer. tired. today is such a long day man. students had sports day. but we didn't go. we stayed in school to practise. syf coming. this coming monday... after this, everything will be over. it will be time for me to study. but today we are quite good. almost all parts we did alot better than before. cool. we wanted to go for sports day. but we can't. thats so sad lah. but i am super glad and happy to hear the news that council got 2nd for the cheer. i am seriously shocked and surprised. haha. very happy to hear that. finally, cheer came to an end. left with syf. jiayou co! we can do it! just 2 days. co ended at 8 plus i think. after that, went to xu lao shi's shop to practise. she taught us everything. i think its cool and i hv learnt lots actually. fun. but i left my file behind in xu lao shi's shop. it scared me when i realised that my file was missing. lols. i shall put everything aside from my mind first and focus in co these 2 days. jiayou!
somebody cool... lols. jiayou bah somebody! xD we are seriously damn weird. why is this so? i don't know why. neither of us know. maybe no one knows. friendship? can it be back to how the past goes? its seriously super weird. don't you realised? lols. wonder since when, do our friendship become so terrible... why you can let everyone know, except me? as if i would leak it out. of course not right? i am definitely not that type of person. not only the everyone know except me... why do we have to behave until so weird? anything happen that cause this? i am so uncomfortable with it. lols. forget it. i am so not used to it. friends are in such way? i doubt so bah. friends? i don't know whats wrong, what happen and why. who can answer me? at least let me know whats wrong mah. or else i am just like a lost one, mind wandering about, guessing till brain dead. but end up, there are still question marksaround. okay. you don't have to tell me that secret. but why we behave like something wrong and weird?i don't know.no one knows.
♥ 9:30 AM
hm... this morning i was so happy. i just don't know why. i was like smiling throughout the whole morning. haha. lalala. i hvn't chong shi zhao lai with jes. no time to do that. haha. i was so freaking hungry this morning. i hvn't been eating since saturday. i skipped all meals on sun. lols. i must be crazy. so i hvn't been eating this morning too. recess went up to look for those councillors. ended up no time for recess at all.
wow. hcl ssp cancelled. jiang lao shi had oral retest. so no time for our ssp. haha. but still have to stay back for cheer practice. hm... i think it sucks in some way. i have no voice anyway. maybe its better. so that my voice won't be so high pitch. or else like last time i was being named as hpb, high-pitched bitch. lols. heh. lols. haha. but i nearly lost my paitence just now. but i didn't. my EQ improved. its much higher than before. haha. cool man. lols. but the cheer ziyu and i nearly gave up halfway. cos the attendance seriously very poor. and we can do nothing. we can't order the shirts. we can't do the formation. maybe we shall just cancel and end this whole thing. lols. i very kai de kan now. woots. i love it man. i love this morning. lols. i was so happy without a reason. lols.
i admit it.oh man. you are really the somebody..
♥ 5:54 AM
hm... i read the post. lols. i feel so too i guess. but we just simply can't help it isn't it? it started right at the beginning. maybe i have used to it... maybe i see things in another way... maybe i have 看开了... its just so. we just have to forget them. remember those happy memories. forget those unhappiness. isn't that better? life is just so... just this way. we can't help it. we can't change it. so lets kan kai dian bah. this is the best way... COMPROMISE.
but sometimes i realised that i don't actually practise what i preach. i don't mean the above one. i practise that these few days. from thursday onwards, i have kan kai le seriously. its such a great achievement for me to have no emo no wishy washy no kan bu kai for 4 days. =) thats cool isn't it? so now i left with not facing the facts... soon i will have face the music too. wahah. hope this can goes on this way. there's always a saying of trust, no secret between each other, no telling of secrets in front of one another. but all of us just can't help it. maybe not all of us. i admit that i can't help it. sorry. i did that for quite a several times. sorry. maybe all of us just have too much that we don't wish to say. we just want to keep to ourselves. i find that humans all very amazing creatures. isn't it? wondered if anyone in the world is able to understand humans all over. if there's really one person who is able to do so, i admire you. haha. humans are amazing. humans are complicated. humans are simple. humans are weird. =) humans are ironic too. no one is perfect in the world. so matter what, all we can do is just kan kai dian. lols. x)
somebody i care...i'm all about you...i just don't have the courage to admit...
♥ 8:53 PM
why?
this qn has been asked for several times. i don't know the ans too.
who?
this qn has been asked for several times too. but does it really matter?
maybe, maybe not.
what happen?
i asked myself. i asked you. i don't know. you don't know. who knows?
what to do next?
i asked myself. who knows? i can't ask you.
what will be the ending?
i asked myself. who knows?
i am not emo. this is just the fact. i am not emo now seriously...
we are so far apart from each other though its just so near. the distance between us is even longer. we are even further away from each other.so far apart...
♥ 3:51 AM
hm... overslept in the morning. missed the sports' day meeting. xP so went for sch early in the morning for the cheer. attendance very poor. ppl die le lah. i gonna find them personally. heehee. lols. please ppl. its compulsary. ziyu and i are so ... yanchang and aquil good lah. while we were doing the cheer, they interrupted us with their np cheer. but they are seriously damn freaking loud. nvm. council can be very loud too. heh. lols. cool.
after that, went to sumo with ziyu for lunch. we were very hungry... lols. sumo back to normal again. lols. after that, we went to amk hub. i bought a new sch bag. muahaha. but i like another bag's pattern better. but i like this bag's size better. lol. this time round i am not so wishy washy. wahaha. cool. no emo no 看不开 no wishy washy. lols. but ziyu said i am not facing the fact of the thing about ***. =P lalala. haha. okay. now i officially delcared that ....
...
...
...
my voice changed.
just because i shouted too much. lols. better. cos clara kept saying she hate my voice. lols. hah.
today i had a scare. i thought i heard his voice when i walked towards the canteen. i was like"omg!!! is that his voice?? shito. thh i can't walk fast, i still persist. i don't want see him lah. thats why ytd when he wanted to hit my head, i had super big reaction. *siam* lols. he was shocked i guess. lols. lalla. haha. avoid avoid avoid. i guess many ppl know who i am referring to. lols. its not that him. its that him. yucks. not somebody...
somebody...
♥ 4:42 AM
hm... today was fun. better than i thought. in the morning, we went for the LOST in chinatown. fun. but i can't run fast. my toe and foot hurts. and it hit the cement thing. ah!!!! pain pain pain. in the end, it bled. it still stain my socks. yucks. lols. we board the bus back to sch for lunch. on the bus, jeslyne and i were crapping. haha. we were recharging our battery. lols.
mr gavin lee was so kind. he lent me his slippers. initially, it was suppose to be sandals. but its too big for me. and i will trip and fall according to ziyu and wanni. lols. haha. while i was trying with the sandals and slippers, everyone was like looking at me. so malu. lols. so we went to the science centre for an enrichment thing. its quite alright. but jeslyne and i saw something that we don't wish to see. lols. after that, we explored around the science centre. we went to mirror thing there. it seems eerie. and jonathan they all scared us and we screamed. lols. thats malu man. hha. but fun. and we continued go around. haha. later we boarded the bus back to sch. jes and i
crapped again. we started to take photos. and laughed throughout. fun. when we recahed the sch, for no reason we were being brought to the parade square. and let ms ow spotted check us. i was so afraid of her lah. cos some of my nail polish were not removed. so can't let her see my toes. didn't had dinner. only drank milo. the crowd control for literary evening was bad. bad bad bad. there was even one mean and evil person who stepped on my injured foot. i nearly scolded ****. but it turned slience off. lols. the literary evening was alright. some classes were very funny. the movie was alright. but i was so freaking cold in the all throughout. lols.
after that went for "supper" with wenxun, ziyu, yuting, wanni, shihui, yimei, wenkai and jianan. we ate roti prata. something happened to yuting and i. we were so unlucky. but no one notice... haha. cool. though i ate 1 piece only, but i feel so full. lols. afterwards, went to interchange to take bus. wenxun damn evil. he kept scaming me. but we crapped there while waiting for bus. lols. and finally the day ended. its such a long day. tired. but fun.
we just simply being so for the whole day... anything. whatever. i very kan de kai de. =D we jsut don't talk. just pretend that we didn;t see each other... lols. lame.
♥ 4:22 AM
hm... today quite tiring. tmr will be worse. sian. learning carnival. i don't find it nice actually. i mean this year learning carnival. wow. 3e7 won the catulput. haha but the workshop is average only. don't really like that instructor. lols. forget it. haha. but today there's a happy thing. i didn't get emo and i 想得满开. wahaha. yep. serious. its true. its like don't know since when, i didn't have a happy day. yep. i will get irritated or pissed easily. oh man. nonono. maybe its because i get very emo bah. hope tmr will be the same. x)
hm... there's not much for me to talk about what happen today. yah. nothing special. lols. sian. haha.
i can't say. are you thinking about it?? i guess so. what have i done to make you think so?? lols.i need someone to say. somebody. i'm all about you...
♥ 6:05 AM
hm... its not a good day man. why am i so emo??? so sorry. if that irritates you... i can't help it. so sorry... i don't know whats wrong with me... recently damn emo, and my mood swings damn fast. so sorry...
hm.. i know you won't see this post. cos you won't visit here. so sorry... i seriously don't know whats wrong with me. i know my emo irritates you. i was like ... when i realised that you are angry... seriously my mind went blank when i realised that. cos you hv nv been angry with me before. plus, you seldom get angry mah. in the past, i was the one who is angry with you. i knew that you won't see the post. thats why i am able to say whatever i want. lols. so sorry...i realised that i hv a lot of weakness..... >.< thats bad. i will try to change.
mr ang rocks man. he saved my day. thanks lything and mr ang!!! haha. i got detention for nothing... that wiggy damn freaky man. he wasted my 45mins. thats terrible can. fortunately, mr ang saved my day!!! wahaha. lols. i think wiggy qite unreasonable sometimes. how can he like that??? thats bad. lols. don't care him. heh. haha.
"it's all about you" is so nice. i love that song. haha.
i guess its stronger. how??? you are really the somebody...
♥ 5:56 AM
i feel super duper terrible and miserable lah. arghx... 我很痛苦... seriously... i hate going to sch now bah. not because of homework, stress, or whatever shit... but whenever i see, i will start thinking about it. thats so freaking irritating... >.< like what yiyong says, life sucks man. i hv no comments... shito.
okay. i shall not let all these affect my mood. lols. today i was super crazy and scary in class. lols. i behaved like a mad one. and van got freaked out. haha. i did the Catwoman action. and yiyong was drinking water. and so he spitted out the water twice. just because i did the catwoman action. haha. timetable changed again. and we didn't get our timetable. not even one. and so we missed our ss lecture. mr gavin lee was like damn angry. cos when he stepped into our class, all of us were like playing or slacking there. so we hurried to audi. but when we reached 3e3 was alr leaving there back to class. lambshit. haha. i got my 2nd demerit point. die. again from jiang lao shi. just because my yan jiang ci is incomplete. we have time to do mah in the first place??? co everyday. >.< jes and i hv lost track of time. we hv lessons on and on. later when its recess time, we even forgot about it. and i was like telling her, "oh next lesson is english is it??" lol. until van took her wallet and walked to my table, then we realised it recess time. haha. lols. after recess, sleepy time. i felt freaky tired. and the last 15mins of the chem lesson, mrs ang stopped teaching. cos we finished our work. wahha. and i just bang to my table and sleep. in deep sleep. but i still can hear shaun calling me," small bear bear..." i guess. and today david called me for several times but i just can't hear that. lols. he damn mean lah. called me potato. =.= lols.
♥ 7:09 AM
i guess i hv thought through some senses. lols. maybe. at the least, i don't have to think so much. vaL... 要加油 加油 加油!!!! =D hahha. going for family bbq later... yay... i almost fiinished all my hw le. wahaha. left with yan jiang ci only. waahahh. but i have no i idea how to write and what to write. lols. lallala...
i like these 2 below... sounds so nice... haha...
我喜欢那种感觉...虽然，很短占...但却很美...其实，有你在身边以足够了...这已让我感到好多了..可是，我始终还是无法承认或相信...对我自己说一声对不起..and 当然是因为喜欢他才会一直保持沉默...如果讲出来我跟他就不能自然相处..他就不能留在我身边了...lols. so random...
♥ 9:40 PM
hm... now i am freaking tired. i just completed my math homework. wow. cool. i finished them at one go. left with hcl only. i guess the yan jiang ci i can just simply go bang the wall. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO!!!! lols. sian. but today die die oso must finish them up. yep. jiayou man.
though i am still thinking, but i think i will just try to put it aside first. i don't want to think so much. i can't do anything anyway. no point. plus, i don't even know what i want in the first place. and i hvn't come into a decision of ... so mind as well just put it aside... =)
went to school today for council... the interview was alright. i was the first one. i was like shocked when i heard that lah. but no choice. so just 硬着头皮上了... haha. hm... so ended up alright... now something funny and embarrassing happened at the end of my interview. cos i went out of the room. i walked and pulled the door along with me. sounds wrong. lols. den i forgot i was still holding on to the door knobs. and so i bang with the door. and i was like oh shit. so i opened the door and apologised. and the exco started laughing. thats lame. eeeee... came out with another word, "twintty". i guess in this world there is no such word bah. "twintty" ppl are no good man. serious. how can they be good ones??? lols.
hm... realised something ironic.
烦恼所以去想 但越想越烦恼... 那我该怎么办 不想也不是 想也不是
你到底在想什么? 这是幻觉吧! 我...已不知道自己在想什么...在你心里有想吗...?
♥ 9:58 AM
hm... don't think too much. it will bother alot... oh man. ... ah.... i need to go hv my medicine le. pain. not confirm if its just a huan jue or something real. i am not referring to the pain. lols.
♥ 4:50 AM
hm... my wei damn pain. from sat till today. but ytd afternoon i was alright leh. weird. so this morning, cos feeling too weak, so papa fetched me to sch. haha. lols. but my wei still damn pain. i struggled through the da zu in the morning. but my left shoulder and my neck super pain. i guess its due to ytd fall in the toliet. damn pain lah. den lunch i didn;t eat lah. the food too spicy le. >.<>.< its quite a long time since the last time i had a fever. the last time is sec1. wow. i am so strong and healthy. ... haa. its actually not a bad idea to get sick. cos i lost appetiate. wahaha. ...
♥ 6:03 AM
how nice will it be if you have a blog... lols. hm... holidays. no holidays lah. have to go back school from mon to sat. >.< i feel so dead now. how nice will it be if you respond... how nice will it be if you take initiative... lols. how nice will it be... haha
don't think so much about it.
we know, we sense, we see. but sometimes, we just can't do anything... we knew. but its just so helpless. so sometimes, we rather to pretend unaware.
♥ 6:55 AM
hm... have been quite busy lately... reaching at 7 plus?? thats the earliest time man. lols. today i was suppose to go make IC. but ended up going for co. i struggled for long between whether to pon co or not. causing ziyu, wanni and yuting quite bu nai fan le. haha. sorry. i can't bring myself to pon leh. i would feel guilty afterwards. =/ lols. in the end, went co till 6pm. lalalala. i have a new phase again!! beside, " pi pi", "pigu", "shito", i would keep saying "ka cha". hahah. wahahah. so random. lol. my mama said i don't have "wen hua". cos i kept saying "pigu" "pigu". lols.
there are so many tests recently. but i don't have time to study them. so the only thing i can do is piang lor. lol. i did quite badly in this term i guess. so next term onwards must work very hard. by that time, i should have more time bah. cos by that time, co would not have so many practices le. wahaha. lols.
wu zun rocks. haha. lol. so random. i am still affected. so random. lol. xD
♥ 5:02 AM
maybe from ytd onwards, it not pissed or what anymore. its sad bah i guess. i feel uneasy. i realised that actually, i quite kan bu kai. >.< when i turn this way?? or maybe its just that i have been so all way. you don't have to change for anyone. just be yourself. i am too tired to care anything longer. maybe i ... i feel quite lost. l0st...
kan kai dian bah.
♥ 3:03 AM
hm... that was actually the first time i angry until i 2743. seriously. i hv nv been so before. lol. haiii... very frustrated. it just flowed so naturally. how??? i am being affected by this. die. i can't be happy. i am so troubled. but actually i am troubled over what?? which one?? i don't even know it myself. there are so much for me to think. this is my worst week i guess. argh... i am so tired over these. nowadays, even if i have 7hours sleep, i still feel tired. maybe its just mentally. or maybe physically too. >.<
♥ 2:08 AM
shit you lah. scram off lah. call me slut?? wth. usually you two scold slut or bitch what to me. i am alright. cos i knew that you are just kidding. but this time round leh. wth. please. if you don't know what has happen then don't comment! wth. shit you. and please. its not 1 day can. who will be able to get over within 1 day?? scram off lah. asshole. sickening asshole lah.
chill. i damn freaking angry. fire on me. >.<
nowadays damn tiring. everyday 7 plus or 8 den reach home. plus. chinese orchestra ends at o63o now. almost everyday hv. >.< nvm. jiayou bah. left with 1 month only. go man. today amath paper super difficult. i afraid that will flunk. oh man. no!!!!! but today chem test quite good. the paper quite easy. hope can score well. i want go gym tmr!!!!!!! hm... i freaky pissed. pls. SCRAM OFF!!!!!!!! SHIT YOU!!!!!!!!
♥ 4:43 AM
