hm... seriously, its a real one now. a real decision. =D hope i can do it. i gonna clarify it. its actually because i made this decision thats why i will go clarify actually. since you know, that i mind as well go clarify suan le. end the whole thing. maybe its better.
懂得放開....
♥ 3:57 AM
i guess i hv a decision to it le bah. after thinking for long, seriously... maybe this will be better for me bah. i hope i can do it. i am afraid that one day later or a few days later, i would be back to the square. stuck in the same situation. hope not. 是你的, 就是你的. 不是你的, 就不是你的.
honestly, after seeing how you reply, i felt so sad. i thought even though different class, friendship would never be affect. but i am just too naive. it does affect. i can still remember those times, happy, sad, angry... its all the past. our friendship can never get back to last time. wait. this paragraph is just purely about friendship please. don't think too much. its just purely a friendship between myself and 1 person. not regarding any liking. please. don't misunderstood. humans tend to think too much. lols.
i am not in the right mood. sad.
P.S i am just being too naive to believe.
♥ 6:14 AM
went for the cip thing. brighthill evergreen old folk home. the moment i saw the evergreen word reminds me of yanchang immediately. lols. sian. waited there for about 3o mins to perform. surprising i can play the xuan lu. i caught the tempo. lol. after that waited for guzheng to finish performing. and here we left. lol. my sat!!! gone like that. >.<>.<
♥ 2:17 AM
i seriously think that if want dao, pls dao all way. don't want dao don't want dao like that. its very annoying lah. today damn unlucky can. met the person i don't want to see for don't know how many times. den after school, went detention, den my side little fringe get cut by ms ow. its just seriously a few strands can. >.< suay suay suay. ah!!!!! LAI ZIYU AND CHONG WANNI wrote lots on the board. and many ppl saw it. eeeeeee. its not the truth pls. they are just talking craps. i don't like/love him pls. ... but the process of them writing damn funny. lols. what yisen said seriously affected me lots. just that 1 simple sentence can make me think throughout the whole day. its just some honest speaking isn't it? i can't decide. but i have to. or else, i will be very troubled over this issue. yucks man. i need time to think over it. yisen, yiyong and wallace and ... think so. so should i??? ziyu.. i forgot what's her ans to this. =P
♥ 1:31 AM
hm... honestly, after knowing i don't feel right. it can be seem from the speed i walk, the expression i gave, my tone, my awareness... nearly get knocked for 3 times, do you think i am okay??? haiii... i shall try not to think about it. don't know why. today i don't feel like committing in anything. i shall stop it. tmr will be a brand new day for me. i shall do my best in everything. yay!!! xD hope the"yay" is not a fake one. hope i can do it. hope i can stop thinking.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAN!!!!! xD
♥ 4:30 AM
hm...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!!
actually, not in the right mood...
not enthu about chinese new year at all.
weird.
ytd the tuan yuan fan still alright...
went out for dinner...
a resturant
i don't want what resturant is that...
but i think the food okay only...
i rather hv steamboat actually..
haha.
after that, went home of course. den i started to zilian again. haha
take take take photos.
wahaha.
wearing new year clothes mah.
heehee
today, chu yi. but wil be staying at home for the whole day man.
sian sian sian.
i will keep think of it.
>.<
keep on listening listening about it.
recently keep watching hana kimi. damn nice man. haha. wu zun shuai!!!! lol. and i oso keep on listening to "zen me ban". wahaha. lols. nice mah.
sian. way to do my hw. why jiang give so many hw?? >.<
♥ 11:17 PM
in the end, i did ask. and i get my answer. though its not a proper ans, but at least i know. =D
argh... sick now. >.<>.< haha.
i miss i miss.... haha lol
cool man. secret code man. haha. lol.
♥ 9:13 PM
wow. today, while practising the dance, ziyu and i damn funny. can't stop laughing. haha.
should i ask you??? can't decide. >.
< but i don't wish to just let it be leh. i wanted to ask. if yes, den at least i know not to bother you mah. if no, at least i feel better.
wa. you are such a good friend. can pretend as if nothing wrong. fine. anything. even if you care, i still feel pissed, you broke your promises. heh.
argh... i failed my emath test! what the hell. tmr i confirm die le lah. math tuition. oh man oh man. i am very confused with it. i always get mixed up with amath and emath. die die die. shit shit shit. i must work hard! must study!!! i afraid that my chinese test will flunk too. cos the paper damn difficult lah. shit shit shit. this friday or tmr still have physic test. i am gonna study!!!
off to work hard!!!!
stared blankly at bus stop there for a long time. shit.
♥ 9:28 PM
i am so imature. hm.. seriously, easy to start, hard to end.
hm... i get it finally. know what to do. hahah.
swing swing swing.
if you think you will be happier to do so or more comfortable doing so, go ahead.
finally understand man.
i totally forget about these.
so dumb me.
haha.
♥ 2:53 PM
i guess i get it. understand. know what to do.
-such a mood swinger
♥ 11:49 PM
oh man. damn sweet lah. haha. i want to watch!!!! haha. okay. shit. my mood swings in action again. xD
let me be selfish... i have to do so. to let everything to end. heeheeheehee.
i am a happy-go-lucky girl man.
wow. xD
♥ 10:25 PM
sickening asshole...
went sch early at 10. practised the dance. finally. but now my leg damn pain. i mean the muscle.
after that met wenkai and went to amk. yiyong and shihui joined us soon. den we sat there eat and rotted. yiyong can't stand the rotting, and we went out. some church ppl approached shihui and i. den they were like telling us lots of things. den we sat at the plaform there and talk talk talk. i am super freaking unhappy.
what's your problem???? sickening asshole. you oso lah. wthell. i gonna stop everything. freak you. you sucks. both of you suck like hell. suck to the core. shit you. >.<>
♥ 6:59 PM
i love the time after co, when we sit down to talk and joke. fun. nice to chat with. haha.
die die. my mood swings are damn extreme.now i am like damn restless. i feel like chatting with someone. but no one. >.<>.<
-avoiding??? do you have to do until such extent??? vaL you are damn silly and stupid. *shake head. shall stop everything.
i am tired and sick of all these. i guess now i know why she feel so pissed last time. its sickening...
♥ 10:34 PM
