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Thursday, August 31, 2006

woots... they r playing there. cool.

my wound 1: haha

my wound 2: lalalal....

my wound 3: heehee....

yay!!!!! finally able to post them up le. haha. cool. rite. heehee. xD

♥ 9:42 PM

woots. today half day only. haha. haha. i think the teachers' day concert is quite nice. i like it. haha. esp the dance. xD den ziyu n i were like doing backstage duty. den aaaa i think the sec 4s r very crappy. haha. so funny. xp hm... went back to amkps. aaaa... but ltr i went off... haha. i went to shihui's she to see my gan nu er. woots. she's so cute lor. CUTE!!!!!! haha.

i think u r too much already. i hv already zhu dong le. but like now even normal friends we oso can't be. i took the initiative to greet u.. but wad in the end i get??? why muz i get n suffer from all these??? ya. i think i m really correct. even if we lost this friendship, it won't affect u at all... the friendship u don't take it to heart, is not friendship anymore. ya. even when u realised that there is a problem between both of us, u didn't even thought of finding out why, solving it or wad... u juz let it be//... i m wrong all way long... i m such a big foolish. since u don't even care abt this, then juz forget it be n let it be... i will juz try to clear off this friendship.. pretend that we hv nv know each other before. n i think this is wad u want....

♥ 9:34 PM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

why muz this happen to me??? since it's already taken away from me, den pls dun send it back... it makes me feeling so terrrible n miserable. now i can rmb all the stuff very very clearly... why my no memories days r so short?? 3 days??? why muz this happen to me??? now i can't lie to myself... i can't lie to myself that i hvn't regain back all the memories... yuan lai, all those memories r so tearful... no memories no pain... no memories no tears... i rmb all already. it's not vague anymore. not at all...

♥ 10:02 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

i m so afraid that it's coming back soon. i meant the sad memories... today there r some scenes which makes me feel so weird, unpleasant n sad n frightened... i don't why... plus, i feel quite weird. omgosh. how???

haiii... now i m feeling real lost... plus, feeling quite terrible... my wound hurts alot. juz now night time, the pain even caused me to be unable to stand up. arghx.. my wound still hurts till now.

♥ 11:34 PM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

woots. today went cycling again. wif loads of ppl this time. we hv shihui, yuting, charmaine, stel, kenny, pook, wen xun, yan chang n me. haha. something so kuku malulu thing happened again. kenny n i lost our way for hm... 2 or 3 times. haha. finally we got to downtown east. we met feng rong n jianan. they juz arrived their destination. haha. so cool. they went for a hike. i oso want. next time, after exams, let's go for a hike. haha.den ltr, kenny was drenched to the skin at first. haha. i said le lor he will be wet before the rest came. haha. den blah blah. all of us started cycling. cool lor. i finally can really cycle without stopping so many times. heehee. plus, this time i fell down for only abt 2 times i think. haha. when we were waitng for pook n feng rong that time. i was actually cycling at the round round area there. den yan chang overtook me n suddenly stopped in front of me lah. wad happen next??? bang!!!!!! my bicycle crushed into his. den i fell he did not. cos his legs r already on the ground. woots. so i fell. n so i bled. haha. finally, fell down n got injured. haha. this time, after i fell down, i came up immediately leh. plus, i was even more hyper. den pook n i cycled up the bridge. n we zoomed up n down. so fun lah. i screamed like hell. haha. den we cycled back. n we went to the beach there to play. sian. i can't play, cos my leg there got injury. but we still had a very very fun time. den when i was video-ing there alone, there were 2 guys rite, thought that i was video-ing them secretly. wth. who want to video them secretly. my taste is not that bad lor. haha. den ltr rite, kenny stepped on a dunno wad stuff. can't rmb. den we were like helping him to get it out of his toe. here we went back home. they went to hv dinner together, sad. cannot go wif them my mum want me to get back home immediately. i was like waiting for 73 there so long lor. my mum dun believe me lor. wth. i can swear that since the day i m sensible, i did not lie to her at all. none. wo shi guai hai zi lor. but forget it. got homelckily only get nagging. haha. when i was waiting for 73 rite, wa. there was so sososo quiet, creepy n scary. eeeeeeee... i was all alone lor. arghx. i still got a hard time climbing up the over head bridge. =X hm... juz now bathing, wa my wound so so sos o pain lor. but when i was apply-ing the xiao du yao shui, very fun. cos very ticklish. haha. eeeee... ltr my mama going to apply qin cao you for me. eeeeeeee... i will confirm scream n cry de. arghx. i m going to video it down. haha. =)

♥ 9:50 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

hm... today emotionally quite alright... but physically not that good. i had been sneezing through out the whole morning till mid-afternoon. after stopped sneezing, i felt like vomiting. weird. hm... so sorry. can't help it. ytd night, it flowed down again. i don't want that. but i juz can't helped it. however, my intuition tells me that it's going to happen again. i meant the selective loss of memory. if i m not wrong, i once experienced this. i can't rmb. the memory of that is vague. i really hope it worked soon. cos i really can't carry on like this. it really affect me alot. i don't want this. so friends, if one day i really dun rmb any one, dun be suprise or shock.

_vaL_

♥ 6:29 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

early in the morning was really bad... i actually wanted to cry sliently... but end up, lots of ppl saw me crying... thanks for cheering me up. i cried during the 2 free art periods... i cried out all i want. so shuang. but my eyes were real pain n sore after that. at least i felt better after crying.

we went to the chang guan this afternoon, so fun. x) we were like playing around in the bus. den lots of us switched nametags. n wenxun ruined my reputation. he go say i masterbed. lol lor. i didn't. i m pure n innocent lor. lol. den still got wad raping. lol.den i was kenny lye jun ming. haha. wanni was shihui. n we were so loving. lol. so funny. cool.

afterwards, when jiwei n i were in the bus stop, the more i think of it, the more i was pissed. i really can't stand it anymore. i really feel like scolding him lah. den i was hitting the pole there. i really can't stand it. i wanted to ask him. why why why??? i was so hurt. but i tell myself that i won't cry for this anymore... i want it to heal. it makes me so terrible n miserable... i don't want this anymore. i really don't know what to do anymore. perphaps, he didn't even bother about this. now i know why he react nothing, even when i zhu dong. cos this friendship doesn't bother him any even if it's lost. ya. now i knew. while on my way home, i was thinking about this, n i realised abt this. met ruihong on the bus. hah. the bus he board broke down halfway. lol. he is evil. he kept suaning me abt the height. cos he was wearing boots that time, n it was like he was taller than me by a head. eeeeeee.

_vaL_

P.S. thanks friends. u all rock!!!! xD

♥ 9:33 PM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

it hurts... it really hurts... i really put down this time. i m not planning to say out anymore. i don't want it to hurt even more. i really rather it didn't happen at all. none at all. so that i won't feel so hurt now at least. this is the second time i feel so hurt. but i think this time round is even worse than the first time. i hope i can recover soon. time heals every wound... then when will this wound of mine will heal???? nobody knows... i m shattered. now i have know what's "heart shattered into pieces". oh, this is the feeling...

can i get those memories out of my head???
when can the wound heal ???
what a deep cut it is...
ya...
on 1st of august, it's not the unlucky day of mine for this year...
but august is really a bad month of mine this year...
all music i listening now, no matter it's happy or sad, they are all tearful...

_vaL_

anyway, thanks yisen, yuting and wen xun... =)

♥ 7:00 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

i finally what type of ppl m i alr... ******* and vulnerable.... i m juz like the "peng hua". the comprehension's passage de "peng hua".

♥ 10:19 PM

now kenny n i hv become doctors. haha. we r hving an operation now. cool. woots. heehee. DOCTORS!!!!!! haha/lalalla. we still operating it. =)
XD

♥ 3:42 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENG LAO SHI!!!!!!!! xD

haiii... this afternoon, we had the rehearsal. we screwed up our performace. n i think it's being remove le bah. confirm le. =X at first, i m quite pissed. cos we put loads of efforts n time in it. in the end, it became a big mess. wad a failure!!! den rite, i ignored ppl. so sorry. =X but, ltr when i started playing water in the toliet, ziyu n i 's mood were better le. haha. n i realised playing the water is so fun. haha. den i went to switch on the shower. it caused me to be drenched to the skin. wahah. fun. quite addicted to it. woots. den i went for co. at abt 3 plus. abt to 4 that time. den we practised practised. but quite slack today. ltr weiting, ji wei n vanessa accompany me go n play the water again. i were so wet lor. ahhs. heehee. cool. den i went home alone. quite tired. i was quite sad for the performance thing. cos our efforts n time gone case. haiii... but loads of ppl cheer me up. haha. thanks so much. xD tonight so sian lor. nothing to do de. rottingg... =X

hm.., realised that i may not be fully recovered. sian. but i muz tell myself to "always look on the bright side of life". so maybe we screwed up this whole thing is oso not a bad thing. cos we finally can rest. no need to be so busy n irritated by this anymore. wow. cool. haa. but i think it's not anyone's fault. but mine. for the result of this. haiii... dun think abt it le. wahah. i muz stay happy. smile. x)

♥ 11:26 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

hm... i hv decided not to be unhappy anymore, or sad or gloomy wif anything. i hv decided to be wad i used to be. we muz "always look on the bright side of life" whooash!!!!!!!! haha. plus, i decided to be guai hai zi. study study study. haha. guai hai zi rox. wahaha. so now i don't sucks. i rox. haha. but if anytime i go back to that time de me, i sucks. wahah. cool. hope i can rox on. xD

hm... here now a decision-making time now. but i think the day is coming. it can be tmr, next week or even the next minute. wow. cool. then i won't need to think of it anymore. then i would be so free again. muahahaha. plus, today i hv thought of another critriea for it. wow. cool. dance. yep. now i hv really really really thought of it le. i want to study n work very hard. den so i can get good results, i will request from my parents abt letting me learn dance. cool. DANCE ROX!!!! MD!!!!!!!!!!! MD come back le. whooooash!!!!!!!! cool. i love it. I LOVE MD!!!!! yep.

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_oswell_ thanks. okay. i m now pretty okay le. u oso stay happy bah. xD
_ernestROX_ i can't watch it. eeeeeeeew...
_joey_ good idea. i will try someday... haha.
_ant_ okay. thanks. xD
_yimei_ i m okay le. thanks. haha. xD
_AMANDAphua_ hihihihi. AMANDA!!!! paid tree or thick. xP
_wx_ i still sick of some. haha. i m human mah. xD thanks anway. xD
_yuting_ lol. hah.
_shihui_ er... i don't know. haha. huh??? all of a sudden??? for him de, it's not all of a sudden de. x)
_wx_ it's coming. plus, i m not in advantage. really... =)

♥ 8:48 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

SICK OF EVERYTHING...

jux don't know why. i m sick of loads of everything all in a sudden...
i m sick of internet...
i m sick of msn...
i m sick of wadever gossips...
i m sick of any secrets...
i m sick of computer...
i m sick of food...
i m sick of drinks...
i m sick of chori chori...
i m sick of *** ...
i m sick of ***'s blog(dun feel like visiting le)
i m sick of myself...
i m sick of jokes...( which i love so much used to be)
i m sick of rotting...
i m sick of going out...

it all happened jux a minute ago. i juz dunno why... all of a sudden, within a min, i can be sick of so many many things... juz don't why... i m not feeling gloomy at all. it's quite a nice day. i m feeling pretty good. but juz dunno why... juz sick of it. all so boring... so for ppl out there, no worries any more... i won't make fun of u for anything... hey hey. let me clarify first... i m not shooting at anyone, anybody... really. sincerely... cos really sick of it too... not fun... boring stuffs... -.-

♥ 5:08 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

HEY HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!1 okay. now i hv promised myself that i won't be mad, angry or pissed by all these or so easily from this second onwards. i want my own self back!!!!! this is the first time i get so mad for two continuous days in my 14 years. n this will oso be the last time i do so. i want back my ownself lor. so pathetic lor. being mad, angry or pissed is no good no good. hm... i think i hvn't xi guan this type of life bah. i guess as time passes i will be alright. think so?? lol. ... anyway. thanks everyone. haah. oh ya. thanks ernest. i m alright now le. haha. finally recovered. wahah.

ah!!!!!!!!!! i want to get injure leh. but juz can't. i m not saddistic. but i juz feel like being injure. haha. hey hey. kenny.. i didn't ignore lor. i so good. i were juz sleeping so nv reply. haha. xP plus, i m not obess wif butts.

i can assure that i won't be angry, pissed or mad for the rest of the practices n rehearsal. believe me. haah. xD lame. ... pi gu. lol.

♥ 10:24 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006

ytd the pics we took. haha. xD

kenny's injured leg. wow. i took it on the bus. cool. haha.

first time bumped into lamp post. usually, is tree. ahah.

KENNY's pregnant!!!! ongosh. he miscarriage for don't know how many times le lor. ahah.

♥ 8:06 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

haha. this afternoon went to pasir wif kenny n shihui to cycle. lol. we caused shihui to wait for us for 18 mins. kenny worse still. 30 mins. haha. den we took 58. so long lah the journey. but better than taking train. even worse. xD. when we were at pasir interchange rite, there was an auntie. she kept staring at shihui n me lor. for nothing. we saw her, still got eyes contact rite. she still continued to stare. u know why??? cos she is interested wif kenny. den cos she don't both of us wif kenny r only friends. den she jealous. den kept staring at us. haha. kenny's fault. haha. finally, we reached. haha. started cycling. woots. haha. den at first, i don't why. juz can't balance. lol. yay. finally lor, i can cycle. but kenny lah. kept disturbing me. caused me to fall again n again. den rite, there was a uncle there, tellling me not to scream. ltr scream til the whole park collapse. lol. i screamed n screamed n screamed all the way. haha.ltr rite, when they were going up n down the slope there. suddenly, kenny swerved n fell. whole person fly out lor. i witnessed the whole thing. wow! his leg bled. but he is a weird person. haha. den we cycled to the provision shop there to buy tissue. i cycled all the way there lor. nv stop. haha. cool. kenny weird. when he cleaned his wounds rite, he nv screamed or wad de. if i were him, i will scream like hell lor. den we cycled back. woots. so fun. xP this time i fell less than 10 times lor. cool. plus, i didn't bumped into the trees so many times like before le. xD but bad lah. the short path link to the bicycle rental shop rite, so short, i oso can fell 2 times. weird weird. one time, i bumped into the lamp post. lol. ... den here we went back. haha. when we took58 back rite, kenny kept "miscarriage-ing" . more than 10 times leh. lol. i even took pics n videos of it. haha. he caused the whole back of the bus to be "FLOODED" wif his ...lol.

shihui baddy her lah. kept chatting on phone. reporting this n that. haha. den i was like demo-ing all wad she has reported. haHA. fun. fun. lol.

i were so punctual back home today lor. i reached home before 7 as wad i promised my mama. x) cool. see. i was guai hai zi. bu gui shi guai guai pai de. lol. xP

♥ 8:21 AM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

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thanks so much for u all to cheer me up. haha. x)
_chingmay_ CHINGMAY!!!!! haha. xP
_stella_thanks so much. x0
_yimei_ yep. we won. haha. x)
_jiwei_ =D
_unknown_ crows flying across
_ernestROX_ u should feel honour to hv ur name so big in my blog. haha.
_tiffany_ hihihii!!!! xD
_shihui_ thanks!!!! =)
_phyllis_ yep. gambatei!!!! x)
_-ziyU-_ okay. thanks. xD
_weiting_ okay. haha.
_shihui_ yup. of course. haha.
_joanne_ okay. thanks.
_jiwei_ ya!!!!!! they ROX!!!!! wahaha. xD
_oswell_ lol. hah.
_ernestROX_ okay. try. lol.
_Mr.KnoWn_ ...lol. guai guai pai ROX!!!! x)

whooash!!1 finish tags reply le. haha.

ytd morning, we had cross-country. cool. we no need to run. but i think it's quite fun leh. next year i oso want to run. haha. after that, wen thome to change n bring money. when walking back home, saw ***** ***. we were like so shocked. hope he did not live somewhere near here. den went to compass point for lunch. so sad lah. i no money le. so can't go wif them to hv lunch together for sushi buffet. =X i was so shocked n blur that i saw joanne at yoshinoya. cos when i walked in. there is suddenly a dunno"val!!!" or wad. den everyone was lik lloking at us. weird. n kuku malulu. den i met wanni n wen kai at there. den we went to habour front together. we were cheated by the auntie. so bad she lah. den went to bugis. den went to jurong to find the rest of them. so sad. can't play ice skating wif them. first no money. second, no time. den some of us went to esplande to watch fireworks. there got so many ppl lah. the fireworks super beautiful. how i wish i can watch again. den i went home myself, alone. den cos i seldom go to marina square. den i lost my way there. haha. so kuku malulu lor. but fortunately, i still find my way out. den the minute i left marina square, i knew how to walk le. haha. weird. den i reached omg at abt 11 plus. almost 12 den reached home. tired. my legs pain pain pain. i dun hv shopping legs. xP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!!!!!!!!!

haiii... today rotting at home...sian. ltr still got to do homework. i feel like going out tmr. cos nothing to do at home oso mah. i feel like cycling or playing bowling. haha. cool.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!

♥ 1:30 AM

Monday, August 07, 2006

today's audition... it was quite screw up. all of us really hope we can get in... haiii...

omgosh... shihui u so bu gou peng you!!!!!! bleh...

yay!!!!!!!!! tmr cross-country... we no need to run... wahaha. yay!!!!!!!1 FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!
XD

♥ 10:40 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

today is quite fun. this afternoon went downstairs to practise the dance with the rest of them. den we practise lian ai da ren n everytime we touch. my legs were aching now lor. when we danced, i kept stepping on kenny. xP. so sorry. hah. den my butt hurted when we danced the everytime we touch. after that, we went to hv our dinner together. shihui, man xuan, yuting, kenny, wen kai n yan chang plus me went to amk. we went to sumo. don't know why. i think sumo's standard dropped. the food very yucky. all of us didn't finish our food. haha. kenny and wen kai r good ppl. haha. they really very good. haha.lol. they accompany me take 73 back to serangoon. den change bus back home. haha. treat them lollipop tmr. haha. lol. now so tired. very sleepy. but still got to study chengyu n spelling. sian. =X i muz be guai hai zi. x) i will study de. this semester i will work vey very hard so that i can score well. x) GAMATEI!!!!! omgosh!!!! my whole body aching!!!! =X

♥ 10:38 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MI LU BING WIN LE!!!!! wahaha. cool. they rox!!!!!! so fun!!!!!

haiii... today's dance practice was a failure. all things muz redo. i afraid... haiii... feel so stress up n pressurise. =X not much to blog abt today. the msn tonight weird weird de. lol. so surprise when i saw lynn online. cos i hv not been seeing her online for a very very long time le. haha. hm... i muz GAMBATEI!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!! for the dance. we muz make it successful!!!! YUP!!!!!! x)

♥ 11:05 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

today had AGM. it's quite okay. but when ziyu n i needed to tell others abt the teachers' day performance, it's not okay. =X
after that, we were abt on our way home. n these baddie, ERNEST and KENG CHONG, made me accompany them to seng kang, compass point, den go home. made such a big round back home when i hv so many direct buses home. i were so kelian lah. actually, i could go back home sleep de. so sleepy lor. last night 2.45 am den sleep. den i company them to compass point buy stuffs, ruining my nap. =X plus, i want to say something. ERNEST LEONG JIAHE is crazy, insane guy. he kept burst out laughing, when we were on our way to compasspoint.

i were very pitiful in the class this morning too. i were surrounded my 1 bunch of insane ppl. Wen Xun nv failed to make me laugh like hell. n he is SUPER CRAZY!!!!
den Yan Chang nv failed to make crows fly across. he is SUPER LAME!!!!! both of them r both crazy n lame.
we had a very very fun time playing captain ball wif soccer balll. cool x)

the stuff is finally solved after more than 6 months. whoosh!!!! haha.

_vaL_

-beautiful ending tale-

♥ 9:32 PM