omg. i begin to don't know myself. i don't know which one is me. split personality??? i don't want! i want back my true self. i felt that i hv changed. i m not wad i used to be. i want back myself. the one i used to be. can i find it???? i hope so. really. i might have enclose myself. living in my own world. i think i m selfish now. i did not think of others. i juz think about myself. i think i m now. NO!!!! DON'T WANT!!!!! I WILL FIND BACK MYSELF!!!!! THE VAL I USED TO BE WILL BE BACK!!! THAT VAL IS MORE SENSTIVE!!! SHE KNOWS THAT NEED TO THINK OF OTHER PPL FEELINGS MORE THAN THIS VAL!!!!. i will find back the old val...

♥ 8:15 PM

oh. this afternoon while waiting for weiting, jiwei n vanessa, i went to the library rotting there. read comic. trying to log in to my account wif sch computers. but i failed to log in. stop me from using com. so bad. den met wenxun in library. he was rotting oso. ltr we were reading the last year year book. so funny. we were crapping there. after that went downstairs to look for jiwei they all. den wx played bball wif them. then jiwei n i study study study. ltr van's precious pencil case stained wif bird shit. so ke lian. dun be sad. den after that we continued study study study. after weiting they all left, ji wei n i continued. we studied until 7 or plus. den get chased off by ms tay n the auntie. i think we get chased off by her everyday. haah. at first, the whole canteen only hv 2 of us. den we were talking about if the gate is lock, we can camp in sch. nvm de. at most, stay overnight there. tmr den leave lor. ahah. den the teachers n cleaners seemed to nv notice us in the canteen when it is so obvious. haha. today the science test, jiwei n i come out de fish theory works. haha. hope i can score well in this test. my previous 2 tests failed. =P gambatei!

♥ 10:55 PM

today went to mac n study wif jiwei n joanne. we were studying n folding stars for jie cai. we had fold 400 le. hope jiecai will wake up soon. everybody's waiting for him. everybody believe that he will wake up de! jie cai!!!! wake up! wake up! we are going to fold 1000 stars! we heard before saying folding 1000 stars wish will come true! we are folding paper cranes too! he's a strong guy! he will wake up de! jie cai! GAMBATEI!!!! JIAYOU!!!!

♥ 8:50 PM

haha. today after sch, played catching around the canteen. my leg muscles ached lor. feng rong, jian nan made me run around the canteen for at least 5 times. but playing catching is quite fun. haha. ltr went for the debrief. it lasted for abt 30 mins. after that jiwei, joanne n me were studying in the canteen. we so guai. haha.

today during the mornig assembly, ms tan announced that jiecai, one of our co members cello de, met a car accident. omg. now he is in coma. hope he recover soon n wake up tmr. everybody is folding cranes for him. he muz wake up quickly n recover. jiayou! gambatei! =)

today after that, 6 plus, went back home wif jiwei. we were walking to interchange. n i saw a baby! he's so CUTE!!!! he wore a baby hat. so cute sia. babies are all so cute! nobody is cuter than baby i think. haha.

♥ 9:41 PM

today, only saw one baby... walked through the central no baby. =X so sian. n tired. geography test today. but i think i will fail badly. cos' my mind was blank although i revised for it. =X i m thinking abt something. but i don't know wad i was thinking about. again. hate this type of feeling. hm... tmr good friday. no sch. will be rotting at home. hm... no rotting. i will need to study hard. sian. sian. sian. haiii... tired. tired. tired. rot. rot. rot. somehow, these few days, i try to keep a distance away from him. i oso dunno why. afraid of gossips??? i dunno. maybe i should not. cos' since my conscience is clear. wad i m afraid of??? ya true. exams coming near. hvn't really start revising. omg. die die. muz work hard. =)

♥ 9:44 PM

wa!!! today very unlucky... while waiting for tuition, i fell asleep. den in the end, late. my tuition teacher den very angry lor. =X i even get scoldings from my mum. =X but it's my fault. den during the tuition, i ran in n out to look for my notebook. but it end up on my table. it means i ran in n out for nothing. very unlucky today lor. n i told myself, next time onward, i will not reach home so early for tuition. or else i will fall alseep again.

♥ 8:38 PM

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ytd there was sport day. but we still need to study. not fun de. in the afternoon, the sport day started. iwas feeling so hot. the weather was wa very very warm lor. ltr we changed to the green shirt. feeling better. but rite, our sch skirt is green. n the shirt is green. it made us look like a tree. haha. but nvm lah. SC won the cheer competition!!!! hurray!!!! i nearly fell down when we were in the carpark. haha. but lucky, i did not. =P on the way to stadium, i saw 3 babies. they r so CUTE!!! haha. =)

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hm... this morning went for the science thing. i was late.=P but cos' i was late, that's why i could see the baby. he's so CUTE!!! i saw him at the foyer. haha. ltr after the science thing, i walked through the central to the bus stop. n know wad. i saw alot of CUTE babies!!!! they r so CUTE!!!! in conclusion, BABIES ARE SO CUTE!!!! in other way, they r so innocent. they won't left u out. they won't betray u. they won't be hypocrite. they will make u smile. whenever i feel sad or down, when i see them, smile will appear on my face. they r so cute n adorable. hm.. i will go n find a babies notebk, calender or something. haha. =D

♥ 7:53 PM

this morning during pe we need to run around teh sch again. den, jackson, gao_gua, ai_zi, yan mei, concave n wu gui. we were chasing around while running. i chased after kj, wx n jackson. haha. so fun. den i ran until very fast. by the time we finished, i was panting like... when we were runnign, wu gui broke my hair band. so funny. we were hitting each other n messing each other s' hair in the foyer.playing there. haah. my hair was messed up by the guys n wu gui lor. den i was like crazy personthere in the canteen. ah!!! so embarrassing.=X the place where i sits is so quiet!!! it seems to be will be very noisy. but dunno why. it's so quiet lor. den caused me cannot concentrate. cos' no mood mah. =X so i want to change seat. but still in consideration. yeah!!!! ne goes back to normal le. =D this few days i kept walking in the rain or playing inthe rain. cool. haha. =)

♥ 9:50 AM

this morning went for science field trip. actually it's not as bad as wad i thought it was actually. auite fun. haha. i love the planting part. so fun. the water testing was oso very fun. during water testing, i saw kids!!!! they r so cute!!! i said "hi" to them. they "hi" back to me. so cute! during the field trip, i kept saying wu gui n pookie. haha. pookie kept using the booklet to hit my head lor. so evil! i m juz stating the facts mah! haha. the whole morning did not eat anything. all of us were so hungry lor. when got back to sch, still got to wash the gloves.

after that we were waiting for feng rong, kuang jun n gao guai(=pookie) outside the sch for a long long time. den we went to sumo for lunch. n shun bian go collect my spects. haha. but when i got to sumo to meet them again, the seating arrangment is er... lame. they purposely made pookie n me sit opposite to each other. this meant i would see him when i was eating. that's lame n evil!!! ltr rite, pookie n feng rong s' food came last. n they said guess whose will come last. n i said feng rong. n u know wad. they said i trying to help pookie when i was not. even if i said his one will come last, they will say cos' i want to see him longer so his one will come last. omg. when all of started eating, they still continue crapping. no matter wad we said. they will oso hv alot of reasons to change it. so both of us agreed dun talk. ltr shihui said i miao pookie while i was eating when i was not. =X ok. den i dun faced him when i was eating. both of us faced below(i meant the food). she oso can said we dun dare to raise our heads up. n feng rong could change until cos when we bent our heads, they can be closer. that's crap! ltr we were playing wif the leftover food n sauce. they oso can change to dunno wad. the whole meal i almost vomitted the food all out! it was the worst meal i had ever! a terrible meal!
after that, i rushed back home n to raffles place for the concert! the concert was wow! they played very well. it was fantasic! cool. it really worth it. i nv regret going. n i tell myself that i muz oso work hard so that i can oso play as well as them. but i think it's impossible. they really swayed or move wif the music lor.n the qu(s) they played r all very nice! but the drinks there r very expensive!haha.got back home at 8 plus. haha. juz now ate durian! cool. nice. yummy! ok. i stop here. haha. nite. ltr need to go n add oil. haha. =D

^jiayou! add oil add oil!^=D

♥ 10:33 PM